So this is the kind of stuff that happens to me.
About a month ago I got my annual physical, which I get about every three years. My doctor is not happy about this, but I'm forgetful, what can I say. And despite being in excellent health in every other way, my blood tests come back and I have...high cholesterol. Not just kind of a little bit highish, but really full-blown high. My doctor is hot happy about this either, and insists on my going on...Lipitor.
Now I have rather negative, but somewhat mixed feelings regarding this. I am generally a very cynical person. So I distrust things like giant, evil pharmaceutical companies, and am willing to believe all the negative conspiracy theories that say that the pharmaceuticals created the entire cholesterol scare just to sell lots and lots (and lots) of drugs. But on the other hand, I'm so cynical that I am willing to believe that the conspiracy theorists don't really know a damned thing and did they go to medical school or what?
I am, therefore, torn. In the end, it all came down to this - my mother died at the age of 69 from heart failure. Which was unacceptably young. This was just before they started testing everybody for cholesterol. But considering the fact that toward the end of her life the woman subsisted mostly on a diet of shellfish, pork and bourbon, I suspect that her cholesterol numbers were sky high. I absolutely refuse to die that young. It's just too damned young to leave my boy. I'm aiming for 93. By then, Jude will be 51, and I think that's an appropriate age to lose your mother. And I think that's old enough to have seen a lot of stuff, but not so old that you've completely fallen apart. At least that's the intention that I am hearby putting out to the universe.
So after expressing my concerns to my doctor, she agreed that I could go on the Lipitor for 6 weeks, and if at that point my numbers have dropped considerably, I can go off it and try to keep things in check with diet and exercise. This is the plan. Since then, I have been possibly a little overzealous - I've been practically a vegan. I am determined to scrub out my arteries.
On the Saturday before Easter, I went to church to sing with my choir at the Easter Vigil mass. It's a really beautiful service which starts off with everybody standing in the dark, and then the priest lights some kind of a holy fire (one year, the priest had the boneheaded idea of lighting it in a firepit, and all the smoke was sucked up into the choir loft, and we all practically choked, but that's another story...) and the whole church is slowly filled with light as we all light candles.
So I'm sitting there in the dark, about to start singing, and suddenly, I feel this weird, pain and pressure in my upper chest. "Hmmm", I think, "I've never felt this before." It does not get better. In fact, it gets worse, and things start whizzing through my brain. Things like that Facebook post I'd read the week before about the symptoms of heart attacks in women. Things like the fact that I have high cholesterol and my mother died of heart failure. I immediately scared myself into a hot flash.
I excused myself, ran to the bathroom at the back of the church and Googled "heart attack symptoms in women". Chest pain and/or pressure. Check. Sweating. Check. Fatigue. Check. Holy crap, I'm having a heart attack!
I immediately walked out of the church, and drove myself to the emergency room. In retrospect, I believe this was a very stupid thing to do. But I didn't want to worry anybody.
When I got to the hospital, they hooked me up to all sorts of monitors - I had those sticky heart monitor thingies all over me. After about three hours, a blood test, a chest x-ray and an EKG, it was decided that...there was nothing wrong with me.
Silly me.
Two days later, we left for Disney World, and I didn't have any problems during the entire trip. Then just after we got back, it returned. The pain/pressure. And it was worse than ever.
So what was it? If it wasn't a heart attack, what was my problem? I went to visit Dr. Google, and decided that I had either gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD) or esophageal cancer. I then went to my actual doctor, and she narrowed it down for me. Yes, I have GERD, and she put me on...Prilosec. ANOTHER STUPID DRUG.
I am now on not one, but TWO old lady drugs! What the what? While I am more than happy to take money FROM a pharmaceutical company for playing a woman on old lady drugs in a commercial, I have no interest in giving money TO a pharmaceutical company for an old lady drug!
The doctor thinks that I got the stupid GERD because I changed my diet so much when I found out I had the stupid high cholesterol! Can't win for losing, right?
I am determined to shut the pharmaceutical companies out of my life with diet and exercise, but until then I guess I'm just a full-on old fart. I'm just going to bite the bullet and take the stupid meds and get my lifestyle under control. Bette Davis said, "Old age ain't no place for sissies." But I have never been a sissy, so I am planning on surviving old age for quite some time. Wish me luck.
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LOL! I tell you what, I agree with you! I REFUSE to go on cholesterol meds. I do take Zantac 150 for my heartburn but I have been doing that most of my life. I should probably have that checked out. I don't trust Big Pharma at all. It is a total money grab. Stay on the diet and exercise path and you should be fine!
Posted by: Kristina Walters @ Kris On Fitness | 05/16/2014 at 02:33 AM
LOL...sissy you ain't better person than me, i keep putting off going to the doctor. good luck with the high cholesterol!
Posted by: marisa | 05/16/2014 at 03:30 AM
My husband had high cholesterol, too, and he manages to control it with diet and exercise. He has much better will power than I do, though! I hope you can get off of Lipitor after your next blood test! I agree with you...I'd rather not be on medication if I can help it. But I also want to see you get to 93!!
Posted by: Ginny Marie | 05/16/2014 at 05:00 AM
GRETCHEN.
Stop taking the Lipitor NOW. A great many studies have proven that statin drugs are almost useless for women and not only that, high cholesterol is actually protective in women over 50. The side effects of statins are horrible, too - muscle and liver damage and an increased risk for Alzheimer's and other forms of dementia.
It's not so much what your total cholesterol numbers are, but what your HDL and triglyceride numbers are; if your HDLs are over 40 and your triglycerides are under 150 (under 100 would be even better) it doesn't matter what the total number is - you're doing well.
As for the GERD, yeah - going "nearly vegan" suddenly like that will do it to you. Well-raised animal foods are your friends - if you want to give something up, even short term, give up grains. You'll be able to ditch the Prilosec, too.
Posted by: Jan's Sushi Bar | 05/16/2014 at 05:58 AM
Have you been to a good GI doctor or just your regular doctor? I have battled reflux for years and also have barrett's esophagus and a hiatal hernia. Four years ago the same symptoms happened to me and I thought it was a heart attack. I just found a GI doctor that explained to me that I was having esophagus spasms.
Posted by: Wil Lake | 05/16/2014 at 12:13 PM
Well, there you go. And one morning you will awake, walk across the floor and feel something different about the way your buttocks and legs feel. Your butt will have fallen. Just giving you a heads up/butts down warning. And best wishes with the diet and exercise. Works for lots of folks.
Posted by: Janice | 05/16/2014 at 12:39 PM
I've been on old lady drugs since I was 40, high blood pressure and high cholesterol. I don't worry about my cholesterol until it gets into the 400s. Blood pressure is a whole other story. I watch that like a hawk. My dad died at 61. I'd like to last longer than he did.
Posted by: Michele | 05/17/2014 at 07:40 AM
What an eventful Easter Vigil! Mine was quite tame in comparison.
One of my brothers was able to control his cholesterol with diet and exercise. The other needed meds. Hoping for the former for you!
Posted by: Angelina Costenaro | 05/17/2014 at 09:34 AM
I hope whatever measures you take for cholesterol they work quickly. I had high BP and cholesterol when working at 20. The cause? Lots of butter from eating out. Now, since there is no money for eating out, my cholesterol finally came down under 200.
Posted by: Sharon, The Mayor | 05/21/2014 at 08:00 PM